Sometimes people just aren’t enough. Sometimes we just need something to write down all of our inner feelings shamelessly because no one understands you more than you understand yourself. I miss my best friend. She always knows what to say. Where to start. Well, i’m feeling especially down on myself lately. This is a pretty common occurrence, and seeing as I’m with someone who makes me happy you think that i would feel better about myself? Wrong. I constantly compare myself to their exes, and to everyone else. Im not the type of person who likes to talk about myself or my feelings at all, nor am i the type of person who seeks attention or compliments so lets clear the air on that one. Every single day i wish i was skinnier, nicer, smarter, better looking and i wish i was a person that people wanted to be around all the time, and not just when they feel like it. Im tired of feeling like an awful person every single day because of what i did to you, even though it was far from my intent. I’m clearly all over the place. Maybe what I need is some clarity. Who do i think i am complaining about my life. SO many people have it far worse than i do, and i have the option to pilot my life and change its direction. No more sighing, im going to hit up the library, the gym, and start doing things that make me happy. Just know that i will never ever feel good enough for you. We accept the love we think we deserve. And right now, i don’t feel like i deserve anything.